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today i cant online. haih. dont know why?! maybe forget to pay the bill dy. already ask mummy to check it out. luckily this few days i am busy with my final,and no mood to online. argh. just ate 'golden nugget' at secret recipe and 'sundae cone' at mcd. then,have some home made dishes. i am feeling so so so full. i wan vomit dy. just review back my national service period. i start realise that i miss national service again. i miss my ns friends,i miss the jurulatih there,i miss my dorm,i miss my bed that i slept b4....etc. so much more. even the period i chat with him. but,time flies. no more in my present just past. dont know it is just our starting for now or it already become our history? anyway,i know i cant control all this dy. just let it be. i know my limit and i got my limit. i will just let it be until certain period. then,....what i know is that i need to work hard,study smart,and improve my eq. the most and ever important for me right now. plan for my future!!! i dont wanna waste the time anymore. wish that i can go the countries that i want at the time i want. i need freedom. please!!! dont tie me anymore. 21 years old is getting near. i promise myself that i surely will have a enjoy YEAR for my 21 years old. 

CNY.

Chinese new year start getting bored for me as this year my final falls on it!
ewww...doesnt sound great at all!!! i dont like.
but,today i just done one of the paper which i only spend one day to study for that subject. (macroeconomic)
actually,final really not as hard as what i thought.
anyway,i will start to relax for my final and take it easy.
nervous makes me forget bout everything.

currently,i just fall for his msg.
dont know why just wanna keep msg him, and i know i shouldnt do so.
argh. i really dont like it.
i bcum much more small gas dy.
shouldnt be that way. i care too much!!!
really really need to control my eq as it is getting weaker when i meet him.
sobs.

dont wanna think too much,but my mind just cant stop thinking bout him.
And,i'm so jealous!!!!

i just wanna said that i am only satisfied with my current working life. nt others.