review

today i cant online. haih. dont know why?! maybe forget to pay the bill dy. already ask mummy to check it out. luckily this few days i am busy with my final,and no mood to online. argh. just ate 'golden nugget' at secret recipe and 'sundae cone' at mcd. then,have some home made dishes. i am feeling so so so full. i wan vomit dy. just review back my national service period. i start realise that i miss national service again. i miss my ns friends,i miss the jurulatih there,i miss my dorm,i miss my bed that i slept b4....etc. so much more. even the period i chat with him. but,time flies. no more in my present just past. dont know it is just our starting for now or it already become our history? anyway,i know i cant control all this dy. just let it be. i know my limit and i got my limit. i will just let it be until certain period. then,....what i know is that i need to work hard,study smart,and improve my eq. the most and ever important for me right now. plan for my future!!! i dont wanna waste the time anymore. wish that i can go the countries that i want at the time i want. i need freedom. please!!! dont tie me anymore. 21 years old is getting near. i promise myself that i surely will have a enjoy YEAR for my 21 years old. 

CNY.

Chinese new year start getting bored for me as this year my final falls on it!
ewww...doesnt sound great at all!!! i dont like.
but,today i just done one of the paper which i only spend one day to study for that subject. (macroeconomic)
actually,final really not as hard as what i thought.
anyway,i will start to relax for my final and take it easy.
nervous makes me forget bout everything.

currently,i just fall for his msg.
dont know why just wanna keep msg him, and i know i shouldnt do so.
argh. i really dont like it.
i bcum much more small gas dy.
shouldnt be that way. i care too much!!!
really really need to control my eq as it is getting weaker when i meet him.
sobs.

dont wanna think too much,but my mind just cant stop thinking bout him.
And,i'm so jealous!!!!

i just wanna said that i am only satisfied with my current working life. nt others.

tired!!! very very tired!!!

Shawty's love is like a pyramid
We stand together till the very end
There'll never be another love for sure

Stones heavy like the love you've shown
Solid as the ground we've known
And i just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up
And even in a desert storm
Sturdy as a rock we hold
Wishing every moment froze
Now i just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can't shake us
Cyclones can't break us
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid we build this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven it's touch
Together at a top like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay like a pyramid

Currently, fall for this song so much.
1st,i wanna explain that I'M NOT IN LOVE.
When i said i love the song,many ppls will definitely ask me,in a relationship?
i said i'm only fully prepared when i reach 21 years old.
anyway,tis song makes me think of someone.
bout a story. miss it.
maybe tat's just a history? i dont wan!

someone help to make up my mind.
let me think bout study study study only can?
please.
feels so tired.

can i hav a full glass of whisky on rock?

sometimes...

sometimes,i wish that i can back to the past.
sometimes,i wish that i still can hold back your hands.
sometimes,i wish that i can be by your side.
sometimes,i wish that i can own the couple stuffs together with you.
sometimes,i wish that i can just be by your side for the every single seconds.
sometimes,i really want to hug you tight.
sometimes,i want to cry but just pointless.
sometimes,i regret for what i have done.
sometimes,i really wish that i already reach 21 years old.
sometimes,i want my plan to carry out but just not brave enough to do so.
sometimes,i'm so weak till i need you so much.
sometimes,i miss you till the maximum.
sometimes,i really hate myself for being so cruel.
sometimes,i wish that you can care me just a little bit more.
sometimes,i hope to received just a simple msg of you.
sometimes,your msg can keep me smile for a whole day and cry too.
sometimes,i just wanna be with you.
sometimes,i can only think of you.
sometimes,day dreaming makes me feels better.
sometimes,i'm lost cause no more you act as my gps.
sometimes,i really hope that you're patient enough.
sometimes,i only wanna be the best for you,maybe you cant see.
sometimes,i only wanna sit in your car,only yours.
sometimes,a toy can makes me think of you.
sometimes,i try to be strong infront of you and i know you know i'm weak.
sometimes,i'm so sorry.
sometimes,i'm so stupid till keep msg you.
sometimes,i stay up till night just to wait for your reply.
sometimes,i break my promises and i know you dont like it.
sometimes,i wanna keep calling you,and i know i'm nt allow to do so.
sometimes,i dont knw why even your small actions can stay alive in my mind for so long.
sometimes,can you please wish me sweet dream?
sometimes,i getting blur bout our relationship.
sometimes,i really wanna give you everythings that i have.
sometimes,i blog to keep the distance between you and me.
sometimes,can you please keep yourself update?
sometimes,i wish to know more bout you.
sometimes,i wish that i can be in a part of your life.
sometimes,i'm just nothing for you right?










sometimes....
cause me lost everything.
too poor that it's too late to realise it.
argh.
i really dont know why just you in my mind.
i really like it but it makes me suffer.
cause i realise that how silly i am.
really clearly understand it,but i dont know whether you feel it or not?
no more important right?
maybe i'm no more in your heart.
okays.
back to my life.
blogging seen like a place for me to rmb him.
maybe i will choose to stop blogging.

my hanoi trip

1st of all,this is my 1st trip to foreign country which need to go by plane. so happy.
country is hanoi which located at vietnam. a really nice country but is full of sound and air pollution. alot alot bike. all the cars there very expensive,but still full of dust. even mini cooper s i saw about 4 at there. cool. weather there is cold too. 23 celsius i guess. i need to wear glove coz i easily feel cold. besides, we enjoy the foods there. expecially yogurt!!! so cheap and nice. got those jelly inside. i still rmb the cheese tart there. awesome!!! make me miss it so much. totally different from the one tat i ate at malaysia. okays.

1st day:
we reach there around 9am. Then,we go to the town and find for hotel. We get to book a room of 4 ppls,means 2 queen size beds wif bath tab inside the room. It only cost us USD 40. after we put our luggage and etc in the room,we straight away out the room and search for those yummy foods there. we walk until very very far, then only gt to eat the mixed vege rice there. really nice. we do eat the digusting insects too. hahas. smell like cheese only. then,we walk around and hav a look at the ppls there. we try out quite number of local foods. i will only show all pica in my fb as i feels hard to upload pica here. then,we do visit their night market. stuffs there must bargains. or else,price hey offer can cut foreign heads. luckily my uncle know they language and aunty is power in bargains. so,i still manage to buy some cheap stuffs. only some. 1st day i already gt to buy bag, scarf,some cute cute souvenir too! we shop and walk until midnight only back to our hotel.

2nd day:
after we prepared ourself,we do hav our breakfast in the hotel. foods in the hotel is nice too!!! i love the roll cakes and dragon fruits there so much! then,we prepared ourself to go for ha long bay!!! we sit on the bus for about 3 hours only gt to the port. then,we sit big big boat,go to ha long bay. we went to the seafoods market and saw those fresh fishes,prawns,crabs and etc. then,we had our seafoods lunch on the big big boat. so nice! after tat, we stand on the top of the boat,feels the wind blow on our face. relax only. keep taking pica as well. feels the huge rocks besides our boats. miss tat time dy. argh. then,we reach ha long bay and we climb up to the cave. gt alot calamite inside too. feel cooling down in thr although we climb until very high!!! then,we back to our big big boat. we go for kayaking!!! my 1st time kayak should at NS,but due to the kem prob,i dont gt to kayak thr. so,my 1st kayak falls at hanoi! kayaking on the sea wif all those big big boat. actually very scary coz u can feel tat the kayak's boat is so small and the big big boat is so so so big compared to the one we sit on. somebody even stuck on the huge rock. hahas. then,we back to town at 9pm and hav an awesome dinner at a small n pack restaurant. so many ppls there!!! the foods there damn delicious.i dont really eat seafoods but once i reach thr,i use to eat it hard. hahas.

3rd day:
Today we hav our breakfast outside dy.try some hot mee soup. nice coz abit taste sweet wif the meats.alot nice foods there even the ice cream there also sweetest than malacca. gonna miss it dy. then,we walk around again. this time we walk until really far to the ho chi minh museum there. we keep camwhore there and posing. hahas. we feel the strong winds there. dont know why there is really colder than the hotel there. we do visit the place where ho chi minh sleep forever. lol. gt guards outside there lerhs. then,visit the president place too. the building there looks so unique. after tired of walking,we sit besides the road and hav some coffee. the coffee is only half of the cup but smell good only. like espresso! if u're a coffee lover,i bet you will fall for it!

4th day:
this special day,i wake up early in the morning,and hav a big cup of yogurt wif my karen aunty. then,i do eat the cheese tart too. really yummy! as usual,back to hotel and hav my breakfast too. After that,mummy they all left me n sis in hotel. At first,me n sis plan to study but end up we walk on the road and start shopping. hahas. we walk until very far too. start hunting our stuffs. yeah. then,we gt to find a small hypermarket. seriously,very hard to find a hypermarket there. but,we did found!!! yeah. then,when mummy they all back from their bike journey. we rest for a while and go for the water puppet show too. very nice know. so cute the puppets. then,like normal we walk around the lake and back to our hotel at midnight.

5h and 6th day:
these 2 days, we just walk around and relax. then go and buy whatever stuffs tat we want. walk until very very far again to the wet markets. eat ciku. so sweet! looks around and eat again all the delicious foods. buy lots lots stuffs. too much to write. i'm lazy dy. hahas.

7th day:
6am,back from hotel to the airport. take a 3hours and 15mins,back to my country!!! wait for so long then reach kl airport. buy lots choc too. love choc!!! then back malacca!!! home sweet home.

Anyway,alot more stories. just ask me if u feel like knowing more.
If u ask me,will u go again. i will said not really.
hahas.

tata! ^^

not for you!

how can you keep msg n call your gf, and asking wat she doin and where is she?
dnt think tat she will feels good wif tat right?
try to give her some space.
if she wants to tell you,she definitely will tell you.
no worries. she's yours then nobody can gt her away frm you.
trust yourself and her too.
tis will makes the relationship longer.
i strongly admit it.
but,wat can do? just think the best side would be great.

tis post actually should more bout trip,but end up like tis.
haih. cause i cant tahan the way a booy act like.
pls give some freedom. dont check others privacy.